Lost at the heart

when i beg to move on with my life i lock up my thoughs and my feelings with barbwire . I just think i dont want to go back to being the person i was , So if i am ment to be alone i would like a sign cause if i am then why should i look for a man when i am doom to be alone . If god will just tell me you are ment to be alone then i will move on and get over that and be happy for the other that have the love that i will never have with another .